13 years ago this morning Steve and I headed to the hospital for a planned C-section. We had been told by our doctor that because our baby was so big they would have to do a c-section so there would be no complications. My mom met us at the hospital, and things proceeded from there. My sister Kam showed up with Madeline, and my sister Rachel came. Steve got all dressed up in surgery scrubs and off we went. I still remember it being a surreal experience. Being fully awake, but having them cutting me open. My boy was a stubborn one from the beginning. Even with a C-section they had a hard time getting him out. The doctor that was holding the suction cup attached to Jeremiah's head lost her grip and ended up punching my doctor in the eye. Hence an HIV test needed to be done. Jeremiah was born at 12:30 pm and weighted in at 10lbs 1 oz, and was 21 inches long. When Steve saw his boy, he went a little green and had to be helped to the floor.
Our big bundle!
We didn't know it at the time, but Jeremiah's collar bone was broken during delivery. I still can't watch the video of the nurses handling him before we found out. His crying still hurts my heart!
Kam said I could have never given birth to that head!
Like every new mother I didn't have a clue of what lay ahead. There were nights of little sleep, colic, and having to stop breastfeeding because he was allergic to something in my milk. Because of that and other reasons I've often felt like a failure as a mother. Through the past 13 years this boy has taught me much, the main thing being how I must rely on the Lord for everything. When I tried to raise him in my own power I failed and ended up hurting him and me. For a long time satan used that against me, but through the mighty love of my Savior, he raised beauty from the ashes of my surrender! There have been many wonderful times of discovery and lessons learned, and I want my boy to know that I wouldn't trade a minute of my time with him! He is a wonderful young man, who loves the Lord, and who has a servant heart, even though he may argue he doesn't!
I LOVE YOU JEREMIAH, WITH ALL MY HEART, AND I AM SO GLAD GOD GAVE YOU TO YOUR DAD AND I TO RAISE!