Matthew 6: 33-34
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
I know the truth "Do not worry". I tell others the truth "Do not worry". I know it in my head "Do not worry", but alas here I am "worrying", fretting, thinking of the worst!
When it comes to my children, sometimes I feel so powerless (I know I'm not powerless, but I feel that way). Our oldest struggles with many issues. We think we are going along fine and helping him overcome, but so often we feel that we are getting now where. He is very anxious about performing period. If it is ever so slightly difficult for him, he backs out. We try to talk to him and feel like he doesn't listen. I pray with him and tell him to go to God when he feels this way and God will give him the strength to endure (Here is one of these things I should be listening to myself!) I WORRY! What does the future hold for him? Will he be O.K.? My husband has even said "where did we go wrong?", "where did we fail him?" I so want to trust that everything will be O.K., but we are not guaranteed that. God didn't say everything would turn out rosy, he did say "he has a plan". How do I give that speech to my children if I can't walk the walk myself? Are they seeing through the mask of my lack of faith, and is it effecting them?
Oh the thoughts that go through my head!!! Another thing that is effecting him and so many kids today is BULLYING! I just read on the news this morning a 5th grader committed suicide because of bullying! 5TH GRADE!!! How do we stop this from happening? I know that Jeremiah is bullied often, and I feel powerless (again) to help him. I have wanted to offer my services to school to monitor the halls, but Jeremiah said that would make it worst for him. Why are children today so mean?! How do you protect your children and help them through without taking the road of this 5th grader? His mother even went to the school. It didn't help!
I don't know what I'm looking for: advice, prayer, wisdom, a good kick in the pants for my lack of faith? You name it, I'll take it! Thanks for letting me vent! I have a great kid! He is really wonderful! I just wish he could see that too!