Last year at this time I felt more focused. By this time last year God had given me Hebrews 10:23-25 as verses he wanted me to concentrate on. This year I do not feel that. I am not starting to panic yet, I need to remember the verses God gave me to memorize through the year about "waiting", and be patient. I do not want to rush into what I "feel" God is directing me too, but to walk confidently in the direction he desires me to go. My natural tendency is to panic though. Isn't that amazing! God has shown me so much about himself and how he controls the future and I still start to panic! Ugh!!!!
I begin this new year with some uncertainty. I can't go into things right now, but I have felt a lack of peace for sometime over a particular situation, and I know that I need to be obedient to God in the acting on that lack of peace. A few weeks ago the word "disquieted" came to my mind. I looked up disquieted in the dictionary and this is the definition:
lack of calm, peace, or ease; anxiety; uneasiness.
God also woke me up at about 3 in the morning with these words going through my head "Peace, peace, where there is no peace". I got up and read the scriptures where these words could be found. They are:
all are greedy for gain;
prophets and priests alike,
all practice deceit.
They dress the wound of my people
as though it were not serious.
'Peace, peace,' they say,
when there is no peace.
Jeremiah 8:10-12 says about the same thing.
Ezekial 13:9-11My hand will be against the prophets who see false visions and utter lying divinations. They will not belong to the council of my people or be listed in the records of the house of Israel, nor will they enter the land of Israel. Then you will know that I am the Sovereign LORD. " 'Because they lead my people astray, saying, "Peace," when there is no peace, and because, when a flimsy wall is built, they cover it with whitewash, therefore tell those who cover it with whitewash that it is going to fall. Rain will come in torrents, and I will send hailstones hurtling down, and violent winds will burst forth.
I feel and yes even fear that changes are coming! Changes that are going to be hard. Changes that are going to require faith, trust, and courage. I desperately want to be obedient, and to grow closer to Christ everyday. To be conformed more and more into His likeness. So like it or not, whatever happens, may He find me faithful.
I haven't posted a lot in the last few months either. That is partly because of the overwhelmed feelings I have been having. I hope to remedy that and be on here more frequently. I just want you all to know how much I have appreciated your visits and how much visiting your blogs has blessed my life this past year.