I am in a very introspective mood today, so beware! I have not reach the point in my journey toward better health where I have claimed many victories. Many defeats, where I have honestly said "at this point and time I just don't care". Afterwards of course there is a sadness over not overcoming! But the good thing is I don't despair to the point of giving up! I so appreciated Darlene's post today! Aren't you all amazed at how they speak to right where you are at that time, I am! I so needed to read her post! And she even quoted back to me the very verse I put on my post last week! Humm.... could God be asking me "Kim, have you taken that thought captive yet?!" This morning he brought the word "mirror" to mind. Not only the physical mirrors that we women detest, but the mirror of the soul. What does that mirror say of me?!
1 Corinthians 13:12
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
James 1:22-24
22Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 23Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror 24and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like.
This week has been a struggle on more then just one front! The thing is when I look at those who suffer tremondously around me I think "girl you have absolutely nothing to be crabbing about!", but alas that does not stop me from having my very own pitty party! I feel that I am coming to a crossroad, and I honestly do not know what God wants me to do! I have never been one to enjoy conflict, struggle or stress, and that is right where I feel I am! What does God want me to go through in order to bring him glory, or am I being called out from where I am to something else he has for me! Could someone just tell me! I don't want to just give up, even though I feel completely overwhelmed at times! I want to be a faithful servant, used by God to bring glory to him in Word and in what I do! That old pride thing always comes back to haunt me too! When you look in the mirror your soul you see your heart! Here is are some verses that hit me with the plank in my eye this morning too:
James 3:13-15
13Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. 14But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. 15Such "wisdom" does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil.
Hebrews 4:11-13
11Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will fall by following their example of disobedience.
12For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. 13Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
So I persevere in my walk because I want no other way! I Choose today to trust Him and to know that I can claim:
Philippians 3:12-16
Not that I have now attained [this ideal], or have already been made perfect, but I press on to lay hold of (grasp) and make my own, that for which Christ Jesus (the Messiah) has laid hold of me and made me His own.
13I do not consider, brethren, that I have captured and made it my own [yet]; but one thing I do [it is my one aspiration]: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead,
14I press on toward the goal to win the [supreme and heavenly] prize to which God in Christ Jesus is calling us upward.
15So let those [of us] who are spiritually mature and full-grown have this mind and hold these convictions; and if in any respect you have a different attitude of mind, God will make that clear to you also.
16Only let us hold true to what we have already attained and walk and order our lives by that.
Have a blessed day and remember to pray for all the lovely ladies over at CWO who are desiring to Live Well also!