Tuesday, January 8, 2008

So I'm not out of the woods yet!

Remember my post where I said I was coming back to the land of the living? Well I lied, or at least spoke to soon! My headache and earache are gone Praise God, but my back! Oh my aching back!!!!!!! Today marks 6 days of pretty bad pain. I went to emergency on Saturday. They did nothing, no pictures or tests outside of urine test, but did give me vicadin and a muscle relaxer. They really didn't dull the pain, they just made me not care about the pain I was in. Nights are pretty bad. Tonight I am going to try sleeping on the couch again. My back likes the support that the couch back gives. Yesterday I went to my gynecologist first to see if it did have something to do with my cycle (sorry for any men reading this). He said everything seemed fine. Then I went to a doctor at the practice here in town. Let me just say I won't be going back there. After seeing my back for all of a nano second, he told me to go to a physical therapist! I started to cry. I said you don't even know what's causing this and your wanting to send me to a physical therapist! He said he didn't see enough to put me through a MRI. How how is an MRI I thought, don't you just lay there. Well yes, but it's a confined space! What do I care I'm in pain here I want to see my insides to see what is going on! No can do! So Thursday I see a physical therapist and they will evaluate me! Hummmmm, well see! I'm also considering going to a chiropractor, but I really would just like to see what's causing it, either by X-ray, MRI, cat scan or whatever!!! Do any of you wonderful nurses out there have any advice for me. One kind of funny is I took some Vicadin before our staff meeting today. It made me pretty loopy. The guys got a couple good laughs, but mostly they prayed for me which was very nice! I do have alot of people praying for me and I so appreciate your prayers! So far God is not choosing at answer them with complete healing, but I am waiting on Him, knowing that he is taking care of me!
Jeremiah 17:14 says: Heal me, O LORD, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise.
So no matter how long it takes! I will praise Him! I think about what I want God to teach me in 2008 (see my post below on waiting). This is one way I am waiting on Him. Like I said above I have alot of people praying for me, some even praying over me. I've wondered at times "Lord, why not instant healing" Do I lack faith? Does the person/people praying lack faith? No, but God! Like Pauls says in 2 Corinthians 12: 7-10 "To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
So that's what I'll do! I will wait on Him and His healing!

4 comments:

Mari said...

Oh Kim - I am so sorry you are going through this. I'm also sorry about your experience with the Dr. I think the therapy may be helpful, but I wouldn't rule out the chiropracter either. I have known people to be really helped by them, but they often want you to keep coming back. I know - that's a wishy washy answer! Anyway - keep taking your muscle relaxants and we'll keep praying.

Cheri said...

Kim- I'm so sorry you're still struggling with this. Have you thought about a 2nd opinion from a different Dr? I would want to know what was going on too.
Still praying!

A Stone Gatherer said...

Thanks Mari and Cheri, yes I want a second opinion, just who to go to is my issue! I need to do something soon though! Thanks for continuing to pray! We have an awesome praying family don't we!

Brenda said...

Kim,

I am so sorry you are still have problems. I would love to give you an opinion of who to go to but I can only pray for you.